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I'm especially fond of you

 Through the ages we have gained so much experience in regarding good and evil, who deserves a second chance and those who need  to be damned, who should be saved over the other and on the judgement runs. Quite the experience for the job to be the judge so I accord you the chance, take a seat and be the judge. A story is told of a man and his son who worked at the busiest railway company of his city. Of the father's many tasks one vital job was to close the track of the rail to complete it so the train carrying thousands heading to work, visiting the city for the first time and even the kids excited to tell their parent of the new friend they made or the school trip coming up among the many others could get there. Day in and day out, train after train the father pulled the lever which turned the sprockets to pull the tracks in place, completing the tracks and the busy train got where it had to unbeknown to its passengers. On another day, not too different from the previous, th...

Tucked away in an old folder

 To celebrate the would be clocking year of my departure for university abroad, I have decided to write the story of what got me in and out of China in a couple of months 😂 and a few tales for a glimpse in. IN When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.... From February 2019 until I departed in September, I had had my fair share of failed attempts in entering university. The Zambian board of loans and scholarships, surfing the net and trying to apply to Turkey,  Australia, China,..anywhere I could get a scholarship to study architecture but to no avail. Through my newly founded family I had an agent who helped me apply. Initially it really wasn't promising with a long silence but at a camp in April I received an email from the school, I got IN. SNIPPET TALES OF IN - non chronological   The danger of a single story and the beauty of different.... Probably you'd expect that this is the time where the racist stories come to life which I did have one or two, like the t...

I wait for the applause

Welcome to another post but before I dive in like nothing happened, let me explain. I have been off for the month of July mainly questioning my carrying on writing to you because of the feedback along the way. I saw great growth only for it to come crashing down. I am back nonetheless and in that line I thought to write something related to me almost giving up on blogging. Let me start here.  You never know your audience.  Just the other day while pouring out my heart to my mother, I learnt she reads my blogs. The thought still amuses me particularly that I was sure she didn't even have a clue that I write, bless you facebook and hi mum. Some months back, I also found out the blogger behind a blog I closely read, ' Suzyo was here ', has read my blog before. *I'll leave the link to his latest post at the end of the post if you're interested. Besides me being extremely thrilled, well the point is you never know your audience. This is applicable whether or not you do a...

Stance

Stand for something else you'll fall for everything. In the wake of people standing up for what they feel matters, from protests against police brutality to the mother land's disgruntled youths, I dared to evaluate what I really believe in. Can I fully knowing the consequences of what I stand for purposefully lead myself to the slaughter; accepting torture, beating, imprisonment and yes, even the cost of my life for the good of it? I, at this point in my life, can't say I've been faced with having to back my beliefs on the spot. But knowing myself, I probably would play the 'I'm here but if it gets hard I'll be in this corner' game. I'm grateful for the still in that we are finally being made to see our different situations raw. "Putting something on twitter is not a movement. You can inform people through Twitter. It is very useful for that. But you have to be present in the moment. You have to do something yourself. You have to be...

And we lived happily ever after

I am anxious. I want peace, hope and security. All the people and things I've based my trust on in the past destroyed it. I strive for a secure future in my own terms but slipped because I am not in control of my circumstances. We're all not strangers to anxiety aswell as worry due to internal and external factors alike. We aren't always in control and well frankly I guess that's the scary bit. Last week I came across a statement that reads; "I am convinced that this anxiety running through my life is the tension between what I 'should be' and what I am. My anxiety does not come from thinking about the future but from wanting to control it. It seems to begin whenever I smuggle an 'I what to become' into my mind. It is the tension between my desire to control what I will be and the recognition that I can't. -" I will be what I will be"- where is the anxiety in that? Anxiety is the realisation that I might not reach the rung on ...

I am not that strong!

I am just like you, we are both called on to be brave and unshaken by things deemed small and great alike. We wonder why we struggle with things others don't get bothered by in the slightest way. We fail to come out about things affecting us. "It's not a big deal", "its not worth sharing", we think. "Maybe they just won't understand". Sometimes we are simply ashamed for feeling a certain way or having done certain things. Well I too fit that description, just like you, I am not that strong. Last week or so I finished reading one biography and jumped on to another. Clearly I can't get enough of the ' behind the scenes ' as I'd like to call them. I'm currently reading the biography of Melaine Brown in her book, Brutally honest. She comes out about her heritage, her ordeal of having been in an abusive relationship, the shame she felt causing her not to talk about it, being forced to stay because of circumstances, her relat...

Excuse me, you dropped responsibility.

" Be careful with what you ask for because when you pray for rain you have to deal with the mud aswell." -Denzel Washington- Let's get right into it; I was in a conversation not too long ago, I'm starting to think I talk alot, and I was taken down memory lane to a point when I was in boarding school. At this point I was in one of my junior years, grade 9 or 10, I'm not too sure which between the 2 it was. What I do remember vividly was the location and the lesson learnt that is the highlight of this post.Let me elaborate; It was a Saturday night after entertainment. I remember this because I always dreaded the girl's meetings which had to take place so late after the night's program and whose content never quite differed from the last. It was always graced with the same; threats if we broke the set rules, new rules especially on dress code, cleaning portion allocations, that I at another point too enforced, plus we had to be up early to work on our a...

Tailor made opportunities.

So often we do take the little things and grand alike for granted. In this post I'd like to talk about seizing the moment from my own experience. Let's talk subject then. The past two weeks have been very life changing for me. I went from having it all under control, atleast so I thought, to feeling lost in all the changes. As a result, I found myself standing at a crossroad and I turned to YouTube to help open my mind, quite logical in the tech era. Amidst the many searches one thing struck me as I reflected on the content of two videos of two prominent business moguls; Steve Harvey and Dan Lok. They both had quite parallel perspectives on the same topic of how to be successful. To their credit both of them are both doing fine and their success is founded on applying the advice they gave based off their own experiences. After all what someone says makes sense from the context, the state person was in when informing along side their experiences. What am driving at is we a...

Who's in your corner?

Today's subject is more of food for thought. Of late I've been on a quest of building more of my character and well this particular subject is closely related which aids the same. Let's get into it; "Choose good friends!", a sermon I had attended by default on basis of being in the family I am in. I had heard it one to many times but if I'm honest I only started thinking about it practically not too long ago. My view has shifted from choosing friends who aren't bad to choosing instrumental friends. Some of our great icons; Bill Gates, co-founder of Microsoft; Steve Jobbs, co- founder Derek of apple; Jack Ma, co-founder of Alibaba to name a few started their businesses with their friends! What friends do I have? What friends do you have?! Who's in your corner? I started watching this new serie thanks to my roomie and friend,Taonga. It's called 'Self made' if you're curious or will be interested after I elaborate abit do check it ou...

Not so prologue

Another post, another subject.This is not so much of a ' subject ' but meant to be a prologue aspect of this blog which yes I know is supposed to be introductory and should have been the first post but well, welcome aboard the crazy train. I am sure you've been wondering with the 2 previous posts what to really expect from let's talk subject, wondering whether or not it would be a blog you'd fancy tagging along with. Best believe you're in the right place and If my plan worked🤞, I wanted you to try and see a trend and aswell deduce what this blog could be about. Guided by basic questions you may have, let me introduce you to Let's talk subject; Why did I start this blog? The true back story is sometime last year a cousin of mine suggested I start a blog because he felt I could write and make a difference with what I wrote. I didn't quite believe him at the time; not because I didn't think I could write but because I didn't think I could w...

It's not about how many days you have but what you bring to each day.

Today's topic is quite a touchy subject but one I feel needs to be discussed and acknowledged for it sometimes goes unsaid. I honestly had a different direction for my next post but I feel moved to share on grief with you. Well just yesterday, (the 14th of this month), one I had never met or had any encounter with was put to rest on the 3rd day of her demise. One would wonder why one person's demise would move me incredibly despite death being an enemy we so often are at war with. *(I will outline why in the summary of the post.) From every event I try to draw a learning curve to add value to my life. In this instance It dawned on me how short and sudden life is and changing surrounding the chaos going on around the world from disease to conflict to natural disasters to accidents to suicides, you name in it, but in all this one fate that we cannot escape remains lurking. I know what you may be thinking at this point, I'm feeling gloom too, you are not alone but we mus...

Let's start

Finally here! First post!, I've been debating on what my first post should be about. I've had so many ideas, so much inspiration on some days but here it goes; Let's start.... Stroke by stroke, line by line, shadow by shadow a masterpiece is brought to focus. Incomplete but not formless a splash of colour catches the eye. But of course to seal it,the final details that tell a story. Framed and packaged, the art. Let me drive the mind image I've  given you home. For any great exploit, masterpiece, prodigy, enterprise, you name it, there was always one brave enough to start and act on an idea. I've been prey to so many ideas but I find myself dismissing the idea  because of so many conflicts I have within myself; What if I am not good enough? What if this isn't for me? What if? I've come to realise if you don't start you'll never know. Rejection is an answer but regret leaves you scarred by ' what if' . So in view of this I decided to gi...